when I won’t remember why I needed you so badly.

Hello. It seems like I am not quite there yet after all. To tell the truth, I feel like I just got my heart broken all over again. I officially sucks big time. I can’t help but wonder what it means. Does it have a story to tell too? I know, it's all just me and my thoughts at work but I just can't help it. I can't believe I still have these emotions that I thought I am void of. I am so ashamed of myself to be feeling this way. Grrrrrrrrrrr.

It is either my 6th sense working or my mind thinking too much. I want neither.
If it is true when they say a woman's 6th sense is accurate, I'd rather not be right.

Uploading the stay over pictures right now.... grrr, I am so... not pretty.
Ok, I don't wanna be pretty, I want to be gorgeous :( 

“And here it goes. I know you’ve moved on, moved on for good, but there are things you don’t know, things that I don’t show; things that I hide inside. I know to you it seems like I didn’t care, seems like I was never there, but there was never once a day that you didn’t cross my mind a million times. And believe me, if I could go back, I would, but things are different now. Time caught up with us & broke us apart, because now you found someone else. But that’s not what bothers me. What bothers me is that you left me & that I left you, with words unspoken & a story unread. Words that are still trying to escape my heart & reach out to you, words that don’t notice that time has past; words that still have meaning. What bothers me is that you didn’t see the tears I cried & you didn’t know that I lied when I told you I was happy. What bothers me is that you still cross my mind a million times a day & even when I’m sleeping, I can still hear your voice telling me how much you love me or how much you miss me & that’s the only time I’m ever happy. It’s when I’m reminiscing about you & dreaming about us. But when reality hits me, it just kills me. But the thing that bothers me the most is that all of this could have been prevented if I had just said something or done something, & the only thing that doesn’t bother me is that I’ve learned a valuable lesson; you don’t really know what you got until it’s gone.”

—	(via poeticheartache)

But that doesn't mean we would be strong and stay together forever, at some point of time, we might have reach this stage anyway.